I HOPE I AM BIG ENOUGH
Each of us has his/her own set of principles, beliefs, and strongly held opinions. We each express our actions and reactions in a unique way. Far too often, each of us becomes a little too self-righteous. I confess to it myself. I, too, become something less than rational or objective when it comes to topics I feel strongly about. Mea culpa.
When someone is especially confessional to us, and expresses something that reveals their vulnerability by admitting to this or that temptation, we tend to judge them. What we rarely see is that we have our own set of errors in judgment, flawed thinking, strange habits, etc. Self-awareness is something I strive for because I think it is something that helps us get closer to the truth [whatever that may be or not be]. We usually are our own roadblock to truth and accuracy.
So, from time to time it is good for me to take stock, to look inwardly, to be honest with myself about myself. That is tough to do. It is difficult to be self-critical when I have invested so much of my thought, my opinions, and myself in being what I am. Perhaps what I am is not the ideal I think I am. Perhaps I am wrong more often than I realize. Perhaps I am dealing with incorrect "facts" or have been deceived, or have drawn conclusions heavily influenced by my own set of strongly-held "principles."
So, with my mea culpa showing, I confess and apologize for my over-the-top comments and/or evaluations. Of course I think I am being honest. But I can't turn to myself for objective evaluation. I know more than anyone that I can't always be trusted. But often I have to pick myself up, brush myself off, give truth another attempt, and know I am human and will often fail because my human shortcomings get in the way. Don't judge me too harshly, hold my hand and help me up when I fall.
